We Muddled through but with Tears, Anxiety and Fear

Before I had my eldest son, 6 years ago, I knew it would be hard, I knew everything would change, and I knew nothing would ever be the same again. But did I really? Before I gave birth, I had control over every aspect of my life, when I left for work, when I left work for home, popping out for brunch/lunch/coffee (you know, when you just check your make up, grab your handbag, and just, well, leave the house....Ha!). If I wanted to apply for a promotion at work, or volunteer for a new project, I just did, I didn't have to think of someone else's needs first, and then suffer agonies of mum-guilt (whichever decision I made). I made spur of the moment decisions to head t